Welcome to the Bliss Frequency, your glow on the go. A sound temple for the woman rising
into her radiance. Tune in for heart-led transmissions, poetic truths, and energetic
awakenings designed to ignite your light and set your spirit free. I'm Jessica, your sister,
your guide, and the voice behind this frequency. And this, this is where your bliss begins.
Before we dive in today, I want to acknowledge that this episode is two out of a four-episode
series where I'm sharing my liberation from the one thing that was holding my dream life
hostage. And that is alcohol. I'm taking you through a life-changing path called the Glow
Freedom Method that I created to help women release their struggles and reclaim their radiance.
The Glow Freedom Method is comprised of four stages, growth, liberation, oneness, and well-being.
Last week we explored growth together and today we're stepping into liberation. Because the one
thing that helped liberate me the most from the silent struggle of alcohol was hearing other
women's stories of walking the same path. So consider this my love letter to anyone who's
ever felt trapped in a pattern they can't seem to break because you're not alone. We all find
ourselves here at certain points in our life but we don't have to stay here. So let me ask,
have you ever felt like you're living a double life? That woman who seems to have it all together,
that high achiever who's crushing it at work, that social butterfly who lights up every room,
but there's another side, a side that nobody sees, a side you've become an expert at hiding. I know
this dance intimately because this was my story. On the surface it looks like I had it all together.
I worked out, ate healthy, had a great social circle, a good job, all the ingredients for a
happy life. But underneath I was lost. Underneath I was falling apart. My weekends had become a blur
of drinking to unwind, then drinking more to cure the hangover. Living for moments I couldn't even
remember and showing up for work half alive just to do it all over again on Friday. This is the
only lifestyle I knew and to give it all up felt too scary. Who would I be without a drink in my
hand? How would I connect? How would people see me? Would I still be fun? It wasn't just the alcohol
I was giving up. It was the after work happy hours, the camping party weekends, the Sunday football,
bottomless mimosas, the late night wine chats with my besties. It was literally my whole life. And
who was I without this life? Something my soul was begging to find out. So today we're diving
deep. I'm going to share exactly how I broke free from a life that was pulling me down with every
sip. And more importantly, how you can too. Because your silent struggles, they're not your
identity. They're the roadmap leading you back to your real power. And if you're in that space
right now, that uncomfortable space of wanting to change but feeling stuck in the safety net,
I want you to know you're exactly where you need to be. This episode, it's for you. While
creating this series, I went back through my old pictures. And honestly, it was brutal. Looking
at those photos, seeing the pain in my eyes, the disconnection from who I really was. It broke
my heart. But you know what else I felt? I felt so proud. So grateful. Because that girl in those
photos, no matter how lost or far from her truth she got, she got us right here today. And that's
pretty incredible. So let me take you back to a moment that I'm not particularly proud of,
but that ultimately led me to the light. I was in Arizona for a girls weekend. We were there to
see Jillian Michaels and the tone it up girls for a big group workout and festivities. Which
sounds amazing, right? Like what could possibly go wrong? Well, as soon as we got there, we went
straight to the pool and started partying the day away. No nap, barely any food, then proceeded to
go out into the evening. And well, the rest is a blur. The exact thing that I told myself I wasn't
going to do, wake up for this workout with a hangover, was now my guilt-ridden reality. And I felt so
bad when I woke up that I started drinking right away, thinking that this was the only way I was
going to make it through the day. And I remember standing in line to meet Jillian Michaels,
terrified that she was going to smell the alcohol on me, barely able to participate in the workout
that we'd come for. And I was so disgusted and ashamed with myself. And I remember sitting on
the plane on the way home. And I was just like, "What are you doing with your life? Is this really
who you want to be? Is this really how you want to show up in the world? Hungover and smelling
like yesterday's bad choices? But sometimes our lowest moments become our greatest teachers.
Because when I got home, something in me had shifted. I decided to join a 90-day alcohol-free
program, and it became the first taste of another way of living. I devoured books by other women
who walked this path, and their stories became my lifeline. My proof that something else was
possible. In those 90 days, they changed everything. For the first time, maybe ever, I felt alive. I
felt like my true self. The extra weight dropped off, the puffiness faded, but more than that,
I discovered a kind of happiness that I didn't even know existed. Even though it would be three
years before I gave up alcohol for good, those 90 days became my reference point for what life
could be. And every time I drank after that, I remembered how good I felt during those three
months, and I became envious of my own past self. And so I naturally began drinking less and less,
and started doing something I call "playing it to the end." Before taking that first drink,
I'd think it through. How would it affect not only that moment, but the next day,
the next week, even the next month? Because that's the power of experiencing a new baseline.
Once you know what's possible, once you feel what's waiting on the other side of your quiet
struggle, you can't unknow it. You can't unfeel it. And even if you're not ready to make the
change permanent, that knowing stays with you. It becomes the truth your mind, body, and soul
can't forget. And so sometimes the path to freedom isn't about forcing change. It's about giving
yourself a chance to experience something better, and letting that experience change you from the
inside out. What I've realized most about liberation is that it requires us to be brave,
really, really brave. Because breaking free from that one thing holding us back,
whether it's alcohol like it was for me, or anything else that's dimming your light,
it's not just about stopping a behavior. It's about facing ourselves fully, maybe for the first time.
When I was in my struggle with alcohol, I used to tell myself stories about why I couldn't stop,
stories about how hard my life had been, how much I'd been through, why I deserved this escape.
A part of me was comfortable in that story. Because as long as I had my reason, my excuse,
I didn't have to face what was really happening. And I would share these stories with others,
somehow validating my behavior. So people would feel sorry for me and not think that I was a
failure or had a drinking problem. Like somehow my past gave me a hall pass to be reckless. And if
I'm completely honest, a part of me liked people feeling sorry for me, a part of me liked the
attention. But in reality, when I kept playing the victim, it was only keeping me small. It was
only keeping me stuck. But true liberation, it started the moment I got brave enough to look
beyond the stories to ask myself, what if this limitation isn't my identity? What if it's
actually pointing me toward my power? And so I began recording myself and my feelings around my
drinking before, during and after. And I got radically honest about how it felt in my body,
in my spirit, you know, because liberation requires this level of personal responsibility. We have
to be willing to see the truth of how our silent struggles are actually making us feel. And when
I got the courage to face and feel my emotions, I realized that my struggle with alcohol went
much deeper than just connection. This feeling of being alone when I was younger led to feelings
of rejection, of feeling left out. I'd watch my parents choose to spend time on other things with
other people, always asking myself, why don't they want to be with me? Even though I know my
parents would never intentionally want me to feel this way. My little brain took it as something
must be wrong with me. It must be my fault. I'm not enough. That feeling of unworthiness,
which was completely unconscious by the way, meaning I wasn't just going around saying,
I'm so unworthy. And these aren't the thoughts that I was thinking. But this is where I was
unknowingly operating my life from unknowingly because I wasn't facing what was really happening
inside of me. And that hidden unworthy, not being enough, unlovable feeling led me to create my
entire life around seeking acceptance through drinking, through diets, through people, through
creating the perfect outward appearance. And because I was feeling this internally,
I also attracted it externally in my relationships, in my educational goals,
in my professional pursuits. I could never reach exactly what I was seeking because this
unconscious pattern was calling the shots, driving me to unhealthy coping mechanisms and a lack of
belief in myself, feeding my desire to drink, and continue this chase for external approval.
And when I lost my mom, things got worse before they got better. But I finally reached a point
where I could no longer run. I could no longer handle the guilt, the pain, and the shame that
alcohol was leaving me with. I wanted to live a life that my mom would be proud of,
most importantly, that I would be proud of. Because real healing doesn't take place when we are
doing it for anything or anyone else. It happens when we do it for ourselves. I began unraveling
my life, facing myself for the first time, detaching from toxicity, getting closer to God,
and learning to love myself so I could come back to life as the real me.
On covering these hidden feelings and deeper knowings, changed my life. And today,
I want to let you in on that. So picture this. You're an accomplished adult, making choices,
and living your life. But what if I told you that many of those choices, especially the ones that
don't serve your highest good, are actually being made by a five year old version of you. Yes,
your inner child, carrying unresolved pain from years ago, might be running your entire adult
life without you even knowing it. Between birth and the age of seven, our subconscious mind was
in a state of constant learning. And during those formative years, we developed beliefs and patterns
designed to keep us safe and help us feel loved. And while these patterns were protective at the
time, many of them can become the very limitations that hold us back today. Influencing every area
of our lives without us even knowing it. And at the deepest level, every core wound is about love,
our fundamental need for it, and our fear of losing it. Because when we don't feel loved,
we reach for external solutions. The glass of wine that temporarily soothes. The food that momentarily
comforts. The relationship that briefly validates. The achievement that fleetingly fulfills. But all
of these external solutions can't heal an internal wound. They actually deepen our pain in the long
run, creating a cycle of seeking and suffering. And so realizing your deeper emotional scars is the
first step to liberation. In today's kiss of bliss, I'm going to walk you through a short
meditation that will help you identify your most prominent core wound and how you can begin to heal
this younger version of yourself starting today. So find a quiet space where you won't be disturbed.
Take a deep breath in through your nose and release it slowly through your mouth. Allow your body to
soften and settle. Now bring to mind that limitation you're ready to break free from. That pattern you
know isn't serving you anymore. Without judgment, just notice how it feels in your body. Maybe it's
that familiar heartache of not feeling good enough. The sadness when you feel alone. The heaviness of
rejection. The anger of betrayal. Or that helpless feeling of having no control. Imagine
you can follow this feeling backward in time like following a thread back to its source.
And let yourself be drawn to a memory. A moment when this feeling first entered your young heart.
How old are you? Where are you? What are you wearing? What are you feeling in this moment?
This younger version of you is carrying so much. They created this limiting pattern to protect
themselves. To feel safe. To find love in the best way they know how. Take a moment to really see them.
To feel what they are feeling. What do they need most in this moment? What would you say to this
precious younger version of you? Let them know they are safe now. That you understand why they
created this protection. That you're here now and you'll help them feel secure in a new way.
Place a hand on your heart and imagine you can hold this younger self close to you.
Feel the love and compassion you have for them. This is where healing begins. Take one more deep
breath letting your younger self know you'll keep coming back. That you're committed to their healing.
And whenever you're ready gently open your eyes knowing you've just taken the first step toward
deep and lasting liberation. Remember healing isn't about erasing the past. It's about loving
ourselves back to wholeness. One gentle moment at a time. Until next time keep shining bright my
loves. I will talk to you soon. This episode was brought to you by Kissed by Bliss. A living
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